An Experiment called "Life"

“Don't you ever get the feeling that all your life is going by and you're not taking advantage of it? Do you realize you've lived nearly half the time you have to live already?”

At some period of my life, I adopted stoicism. I was in a lot of pain. Stoicism philosophy helped me to be mentally tough, resilient, and content. I managed to go through hurricanes and battles and come out of them with minimum damage. Stoicism in so many ways similar to my pragmatism. It is just seeing the world as it is and deals with it accordingly through 4 virtues: Courage, Temperance, Justice, and Wisdom. It is summarized in the statement by Epictetus:

“For it is within you, that both your destruction and deliverance lie…..The judgment seat and a prison is each a place, the one high, the other low; but the attitude of your will can be kept the same, if you want to keep it the same, in either place.”

Stoicism believed that a fundamental key to reducing suffering and living a content life is to make a clear distinction between that which controllable and uncontrollable. To understand this distinction we can focus our energy and time on what we can influence and come to accept what we cannot. All great so far, but actually what made me abandon my stoic approach to life is that Stoicism promotes tuning down emotions.  Not getting too high.  Not getting too low.  It encourages disengaging from the exterior world because getting too caught up in things will always disappoint.  This is could be a safe approach to life, will make you content but from my personal perspective, you will never taste true happiness. The intensity of life makes us feel alive – makes me personally feel alive – and I wouldn’t give up that ever to live mediocre contentment.  Having big dreams even if they fail, getting attached to people, to concepts and to things even when we know we will lose them all at a moment is what is this life is all about. That taught me although the mysticism approach is safe yet weak because simply humans get used to anything after a while of practice, no big deal there. The real challenge for me is to stay conscious right in the middle of it all. It ain’t easy and that’s why I like it. I want to feel disappointed and hurt because these are the feelings that enable me to appreciate when I am truly happy and accomplished. But the trick is to know WHEN to disengage, HOW to tune down your attachment to anything, and BELIEVE deeply in reality as it is and genuinely embracing it. That for me was the true practice for the stoic virtues. Therefore, I created my own philosophy from everything that made sense to me and made me truly myself.

Stoicism was great because it supported my view on vulnerability. I didn’t want ever to feel or show myself vulnerable so I toughened up and didn’t allow myself to show who I truly was. I wasn’t comfortable showing that not because I was scared of judgment but because I didn’t want to remember that side of me or acknowledge it. It was easier, much much easier to behave as I never cared because to care is to feel and I didn’t want to feel. I kept a safe distance from everyone, even from myself and that was that for many years. At some point, I felt numb. I was always content and in peace. I don’t get angry but I don’t get excited either. I was not getting sad but not thrilled as well. I was observing the world through a bulletproof glass wall that made me safe through the battles I endured but taking away my real life and I decided to change that.

It was difficult, still very difficult not to run away and hide behind my glass wall. It is a challenge for me to recognize the moment when I am acting on my past trauma but I am more mindful than I ever been. I know I have an avoidance attachment style and I recognize when it is activated. I use the secure attachment part of my character to tell me what to do and how to react toward people and situations personally and professionally. That challenge keeps me motivated because I know I am challenging myself, challenging my background, and most importantly living my life to the fullest, no regrets. Believe it or not, living this way made it easier to accept reality, to move on when necessary and surprisingly enough even to have better compassion toward others. Being true to yourself is like being tidy. It requires effort and routine but very rewarding long term. Besides the aesthetic part of it, it’s functional. You know where is everything you are looking for because everything is organized in the same place all the time. So it is easier to recognize. Same with the psyche, if you are true to yourself, do things as you feel them, you are not ashamed of admitting the reason behind them and keep enough distance from your ego, you are keeping your mind and soul tidy. However, we can’t kill our ego and the sense of “I” so reality sometimes hurts, but you get used to the feeling because you know for a fact that life is a rollercoaster; once you are up, once you are down and each leads to the other.

Life is about taking risks and learning lessons. I would rather live one life to the fullest than a thousand lives safely. Wisdom created through hardship and there is nothing more beautiful to me than having enough wisdom to recognize life, people, and the situations as they truly are and accept that with a heart full of gratitude and appreciation.

As I started with Ernest Hemingway, I will end it with him:

“I did not care what it was all about. All I wanted to know was how to live in it. Maybe if you found out how to live in it you learned from that what it was all about.”

 

 

Translation: Those with volatile friendliness cannot be trusted, who expose secrets cannot be trustworthy, the ungrateful cannot be reliable, who keep breaking your motivation cannot be dependable, whoever comes to you only in their free time cannot be genuine.  If you wouldn’t be careful of all the above, you cannot be trusted for yourself.

Arabs for so many centuries known for their skills in reading body language and high emotional intelligence. Arabs were traders, their well-being and the thriving of their business depended on their ability to communicate effectively and understand the others instantaneously, and so they did for so many decades. That’s why I started with the Arabic statement. I am somehow proud of the Arab part of me, as much as it caused me so much hardship in my life, but it has given me an incredible opportunity for growth and see the world from a very unique position. Generally speaking; Arabs are emotionally intelligent, they have an activated intuition and in most cases can read a person very well. The down side of that they are very expressive and emotional, shortsighted and can be easily manipulated. They are present at the moment which make them tuned to the moment but might be a blind for the future. I took that, nurtured it, but thankfully had the upbringing to be pragmatic and think long-term thanks to my amazing father. All of that made me who I am today; a mixture of grounded crazy yet weird person.

Call it a curse, call it a bless. I am not so sure how to describe it but that’s me. I do feel everything, I can read almost everyone and I am rarely wrong. I know what is rational yet my sympathy can change my perspective. Spo usually I know what needs to be done but sometime I don’t

The Survival of the Fetish

Fetishes, kinks and fantasies reveal part of the unconscious yet need to be understood. The issue is that people rarely are honest about that part of their lives, not only with other people but as well with themselves. We lived years of mental suppression of human sexuality, which made people unable to explore or reveal their sexuality uncensored. There are layers of complexity that made this topic one of the biggest taboos to discuss. And that’s exactly why I decided to write about fetishes, kinks, and fantasies this time.

Society has condemned sexuality to hide in the shadows of life, but why? One debated reason is that during the beginning of what we know as the human culture, there was an intention to control the frequency of sex due to its biological consequence of producing babies which were a problem due to the extension of the sexual maturity and life span of women and the decrease in the mortality rate of babies. Another reason is psychological; it is said that sex was a reminder of our animal nature. We dealt with our mortality by creating values that added sense to our lives and our animalistic nature was a threat to these values, which kept us from confronting the inevitability of our mortality. Additionally, if we think about it in a psychoeconomic way, we can see that human nature craves whatever taboo; the more scarce a concept is, the more we are willing to discover it and even pay for it. There are many industries built on sex, and there are billions generated. The idea that sex sells is a fact, and many industries benefited from it, simply sex got very profitable and there is no real intention to change our modern system.

            Ancient civilizations' approach to sex was completely different, rather the opposite of what we have in modern life. Ancient India produced the first book on human sexuality, many people are familiar with “Kama Sutra” but are unaware that this Sanskrit text was more than a sex positions book. Actually, the book is a guide to the art of living, the nature of love & pleasure. The book consists of seven chapters that cover almost every possible aspect of Kama. The text discusses the object of human pursuit and mentions desire, sexuality, and emotional fulfillment as one of the proper goals of life. The text chapters address methods for courtship, the art to be socially engaging, finding a partner, flirting, maintaining power in a marriage, when and how to commit adultery, sexual positions, and even same-sex relationships. All this has been discussed openly around 400 BCE.       Ancient Chinese were not shy about sex either, the Chinese literature was loaded with many sexual references. Even the Book of Changes, which is a spiritual book, emphasizes and used sex as one of the ways to explain the world. As well, we can thank ancient Japan for eroticism. Around the eighth century AD, Japan produced the first erotic novel called The Tale of Genji. Erotica was considered as a central art form for the nobility, similar to painting, and music. Even ancient Greece and Rome had a very liberal approach to sex before the arrival of Christianity. Similarly, the Arabic peninsula was very promiscuous before the Islamic era and had the opposite view on sexuality that it adopted after the spread of Islam.

            Understanding the history of human sexuality is essential to understand fetishes and fantasies.  Similarly to sex, fetishes, kinks, and fantasies are the result of early conditioning experiences or as a consequence of strong emotional or physical experiences. That doesn’t mean necessarily that these fetishes have negative psychological triggers but rather formed by non-sexual experiences a person found arousing during early life. And that is exactly why I opened my article with the statement, “Fetishes and fantasies reveal part of the unconscious yet need to be understood.” The same fetishes and kinks oftentimes driven by completely different triggers to different people, and it could satisfy them in completely different ways. First, exploring that and then understanding it can be revolutionary to that person. It is not only about the pleasure and the satisfaction resulted from the experience but as well the possibility of conscious revelation resulted from practicing freely what a person likes or truly desires. Another aspect rarely spoken of is bonding; level minded Fetishists/kinksters couples have a higher level of understanding and trust among them. Those couples are able to share their darkest secrets and desires without fear of judgment. They built up enough trust between them to be able to exercise extreme practices or be in helpless positions knowing that their partner will know what to do when it is needed to be done. 

More and more in today’s life, we are warming up to the idea that fetishes are not deviations anymore, they are not pathology either. However, suppressing a fetish or worse trying conditioning it can cause psychological damages. Many Psychologists now believe having a fetish is actually healthy as long as it is expressed in a healthy way. Although the research and literature on this topic are very limited, it is widely believed that fetishists are healthier/happier than those who don’t have one. The reasons behind that are simple, couples who take part in fetishes are emotionally healthier because they have trust among themselves and possess a better ability to communicate their needs and desires and have to be very sensitive to the needs of their partner even without talking sometimes. Another reason that the same biochemicals in the brain released during sex like endorphins and serotonin also flood the brain during pain; therefore a little pain might improve the sexual experience and climax which promotes better healthy life ;)

            As Frank Zappa said: “Without deviation from the norm, progress is not possible,” and that’s what I deeply believe in life. It is important to explore life and go out of the path that was designed for us to discover new experiences, new feelings, and new destinations. These experiences might get a person closer to themselves, and if they are lucky enough to other people as well. Doing something unexpected or uncommon can be utterly refreshing. It revives the rebel inside of a person and makes them believe in their ability to reach new heights. It is one of the ways to freedom and divine. Even ancient India and China thought that sex can be a spiritual practice that allows people to attain enlightenment through pleasure. The whole concept of tantra in Hinduism and Buddhism was challenging standard religious practices similar to most of the fetishes that challenge social norms regarding sex. And similar to tantra, it focuses on “being.” However, how a person can use that focused energy and the state of being right here right now is completely dependent on their intentions. Some will use it to obtain a higher level of consciousness of themselves, their psyche, and their partner. Others will use it to distract from themselves and even possibly use it against others.  That doesn’t mean fetishes/kinks are pathological, rather the way it is used by some can be destructive, like anything else in this life. That’s exactly why we shouldn’t look at fetishes in a pejorative way.

            Fetishes are another way to rebel against the tutelage of society; it is a chance to feel omnipotent in one's life and exercise their own ultimate freedom without fear of judgment or punishment. It is an extreme act of love, trust, and even spirituality. But it remains limited to those with a great deal of equanimity and valor.

I am into what I am into, you are into what you are into. We don’t have to agree on our preferences, and if you are happy and do no harm to others, then go on and indulge yourself.

              

The Problem is Your Mindset, Not Your Flaws

We are all have some flaws, most of the time we need to explore and understand them. Even attempt to fix them but completely get rid of them, that could change the core of our being. This is a simple concept, but many of us struggle to understand it. The majority believe flaws are something we need to get rid of to be able to be better, this is far from the truth. To understand the depth of our biases & inhibitions does not necessarily mean to kill it. It means to track it down, understand the triggers, find the source of it and rationalize the cause and only then practice enough self-control and discipline to stop ourselves from falling to the same traps.

The issue is most people go to war against themselves to kill their flaws. Some understand it is something to fix not to get rid of, but they stop at stage one or two. Rarely people are mindful/conscious enough to go deeper and if they are, unfortunately, the majority of the time they lack enough discipline and self-control to say “NO” to themselves or stop themselves from repeating patterns. That gets even harder when they feel vulnerable, then there is an excuse. The issue with this mindset is getting trapped in a vicious cycle of occurrences that they blame on the world and that makes it even harder to find the motivation to break free because from inside the cycle it seems it is all inevitable.

Here we can understand that mindfulness/consciousness alone is not enough. Mindset and habits are a huge part of the process. Being mindful with a fixed mindset creates even more suffering, people under this category are suffering the most. They are aware of all necessary but they lack the attitude to drive the change. They see everything and attempt to change it but then they are unable to overcome the obstacles or have enough determination to get it over with because they tend to relapse easier than people with a growth mindset.

On the other hand, being mindful and with a growth mindset, those the rare species. Those people are aware, mindful, and conscious. Have enough discipline and self- control to push themselves to overcome the obstacles and challenges they encounter through their journey. We call those people lucky or fortunate but the truth is they are neither. Those people endure more pain than others and they have a great deal of valor than the rest, and they do all of this in silence therefore, we consider them lucky.

I always say, life is way more complex than we think of it. There are too many aspects of life that get us where we need to be. It is never about one or two things it is almost always about the combination of aspects that allow us to live happily or in misery. The only constant thing is that we are the force behind everything and that the universe is connected in a magical way. It seems too good/bad to be true (depends on your perspective) but observing the world can lead us to this ultimate fact. There is no luck, no coincidences in this life. It is all part of a sequence of actions that we consciously or unconsciously take. It is easier to think of them as arbitrary because then we are less responsible for whatever happens to us.

We can think of all this complexity as a beautiful thing which allows us the opportunity to transcend to a high level of being and enjoy the good and the bad as part of the lessons to the enlightenment. Another option is to think of it as chaos and suffering we have to endure until it is the time to depart. Again it is a choice we are to make, to live the life with a light hopeful heart or burdened saddened heart. Ken Kesey once described this so beautifully:

“It isn't by getting out of the world that we become enlightened, but by getting into the world…by getting so tuned in that we can ride the waves of our existence and never get tossed because we become the waves.”

F.L.Y

                    

My dear, when someone tells you that they want you to take it slow, they are ok with keeping it casual, they are not ready for a serious relationship, or whatever reason they give you. Just wish them the best of luck and leave.

People are not a challenge, lost soul, or need saving ... just let them be. If a person tells you they are not the one for you; almost all the time they are probably right. It is not your fault; and definitely, there is nothing on earth you can do to change their mind.

We all like to be a hero, or feel like we are special for someone to change for us, but trust me a person who doesn't feel you are not the one worth fighting for. You are a hero every fucking day because you still decide to wear your heart on your sleeve. You are special because you give from yourself to everyone you care for without asking for much back. 

Don't think of them as the enemy either. They are human and they need love too, it is just most of the time people don't fall in love with each other at the same time and people fall in love with what they deeply need, not with what seems perfect.

Darling, you deserve to be loved unconditionally. You are worthy of undivided attention. And you will have that sooner than later, not because you are perfect but because we all find someone to love, and love us back, just at the right time. Have some faith!

Just remember, you are not entitled to anything because you are a woman. Don't use your femininity to victimize yourself. You are as powerful as you allow yourself to be but this power affects you and YOU ONLY.

The same for you dear man, you are not entitled to anything because you are a man. Don’t use your masculinity to justify your indifference.  You are powerful as you allow yourself to show emotions and care deeply without limits. A real assured man is not afraid of gentleness and it will never be taken as weakness.

First love yourself, it is impossible to be loved by someone if you don't have the love from within. It is not an occult equation; an empty vase can't keep beautiful flowers alive. Healthy love comes from self-acceptance, understanding, and mindfulness. Take your time, good things worth waiting for.

Finally, my sweethearts remember, if it is easy it isn't worth it. That's why true love is rare to find. It is hidden within YOU. First, discover yourself and love yourself mindfully and unconditionally. You are the seed of true love and no other person can give you what you can't give yourself.

Life , Death and COVID-19

“To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.”

I love so many things about Harry Potter, this quote one of them. For a lot of people, it might seem just stupid fiction, but for me, it states a fact of our existence.

Life and death both are facts, I don’t know when we started to cherish one and frowns upon the other. Life and death are two faces of the same coin. It doesn’t matter how we feel about them, they both still facts of this existence. I understand that human nature tries to run away from whatever it doesn’t understand. I completely comprehend that we are scared the most of the mysterious. However, existence will not change to accommodate our feelings and perspectives.                                                                                                            

I want to ask the reader, why death is scary? Why are we obsessed with forever? Why we keep trying to omit that everything comes to an end? Why are we so greedy and want everything forever? For the length of life and existence itself been proved over and over again that everything is temporary and the illusion of permanent doesn’t exist except in our mind. Civilizations, creatures, ideas, problems, and solutions have come and go, and nothing of what once was here cease to exist anymore. As there is arrival, there is a departure, whether we like it or not.

I am not suicidal, nor I glorify death. Simply I accepted death as I accepted life. As I try to make the best of my day, I try to not leaving regrets to take to my grave.  And that has allowed me to live in harmony and peace. Does that mean I have everything I ever wished for? NO. Does that mean I am helpless? NO. I am just in peace and never looked at death as an end of existence. I am intrigued by death, when it comes, I am curious to what is beyond this life, beyond what I know. There might be something awesome, there might be something awful, there might be nothing. But I have faith that I will be fine with whatever comes next as I am fine with this life. We really don’t know how we existed and what is our purpose in this universe, and we are still capable and surviving and managed to adapt to this life. Why do we imagine that we won’t be able to adapt to death and what is after death?

We are collectively glorifying life and tried so hard to avoid death; we overburdened our planet. We overcrowded the earth, and once the existence trying to correct itself, we are fighting back in the name of humanity. People do die every day everywhere. People have died from disease, famines, droughts, floods, storms and many other ways all along history, and once existence has spoken, no one can avoid it. We are trying to delay the inevitable, we are trying to cut the loses, I understand it – very human of us – but the way we address this will change our future drastically. I am not talking about the devastating economic losses we will face soon. I am not talking about casualties and losses (human and material). I am talking about our existence as we know it. We try to trick existence while we don’t understand shit about life. We are trying to “fix” problems and treat diseases. But have we ever stopped and thought of at what cost we are doing that?

 The more we are pushing people to avoid getting sick, the more we are compromising our future as species. Everything we have learned about biology and our evolution, we are just throwing it to the trash and building dependency on governments in the claim that we are technologically advanced enough to face anything. I am not a backward hippie, not anti-vax mom; I am a person who has so much faith in science & technology and has the most respect for that. However, I am a thinker, and I never take what I have been told for granted. I do think of my life and others and have a natural tendency for analysis. As a proud pragmatic person, I see that our continuous dependency on technology and government will eventually hurt us in the long term. We are trying to make people live longer, not through natural selection but through human intervention. Our obsession with avoiding death has not only burdened our planet but as well created an unnatural state of living. We do get sick, our body fights sickness, and we build immunity, and the body gets used to certain conditions. Nowadays, we are trying not to fall ill, even for the slightest sickness we can recover from. We are trying to avoid it at all costs, which is very human. The question is, leaving some diseases out there without a permanent solution can do what in the future? Avoiding it in the short term might seem reasonable if we have a long term strategy to terminate it. But leaving diseases to evolve will harm our future and will cause more causalities over an extended period of time. Many diseases avoided but not terminated is still lurking and might evolve to cause us further harm in the future.

The same at this time, what we are doing with COVID-19 is, we are trying to avoid the virus at the cost of our future. We are trying to protect the health system at the expense of the human future and our evolution. We are trying to look away from the reality check we have been given. No health system, no government, no nation is ever ready for an epidemic to burst. We were just living with the illusion that we reached a technological advancement, which enabled us to fight everything, everything but life as it is. The question here, we will avoid the peak of COVID-19, and it might pass like SARS, MARS, and H1N1 and many others but not thinking of the future and how to terminate a disease is just plain stupid. We have a history of a virus that has hit humanity in many forms, many times posing a real threat to our existence. The solutions we have, either we devote all resources to terminate the disease and contain it in all possible ways using our technological advancement. Or let nature and biology take its way, and we find the best way to build herd immunity. People call it cruelty to risk the lives of the elderly and high risk, I call it saving our future. When we stop glorifying life and hate death, we will see what is happening as a natural process of life. Yes, we all hate it, and we don’t want it near our loved ones or us, but guess what? We really don’t have a choice; either we let life be, and we protect our future and the future of our children, or we ourselves will soon cease to exist due to our own doings. It might happen in the next 10 years it might be 100 years. The bottom line, if we don’t sober up and stop intervening in the course of existence and nature, we will fuck ourselves up. If we want to fight and use our technological advancement to defeat nature, then lets at least do it right.

Can governments only cut on military expenditures and armament ($1822 billion in 2019 alone) and spend the money to advance science and technology? Or governments will do whatever it takes to make people believe they are doing the best while they are hiding their failure and incompetency? The current crisis can answer that clearly for anyone willing to think for themselves.

I S O R R O P I A

"Virtue is the golden mean between two vices, the one of excess and the other of deficiency” 

 - Aristotle        

            For many, this statement will hold no significance whatsoever, or maybe it seems hard to grasp. For me, in so many ways it defines my being. Aristotle was the reason I studied Art in high school. I hated math, I admit, but then there was philosophy, Logic, psychology, and economics as subjects only available for the Art section. I had to choose but I had an easy decision to make. A couple of years before high school I have just read in Arabic “Nicomachean Ethics” the book was hard that I had to read it twice but “oh boy” I fell in love. From there I went to Socrates, Plato, Nietzsche, Ibn Rushd, and Ibn Al-Haytham and for a brief time, my mom thought she lost me. While kids were playing or watching TV I spent hours in my room reading for over 6 hours straight. And now as an adult, I know for sure, that books I read have made me the person I am today.

            While almost everyone is trying to belong, I am trying to not belong to anything or anyone. That for a while was strange, even for me. Then lately I have decided to re-read the books I read in my teenage years to reflect on myself through that and examine the difference between English and Arabic. The experiment left me in awe. The books I read and the philosophies I indulged myself in have created my intellect. Many of the very critical concepts of my life came directly from Aristotle, Socrates, and Nietzsche. More importantly, my pragmatism comes directly from the golden mean of Aristotle.  For so many years I have struggled to stay in the middle. It was hard living in the world we are living in and stay grounded in the middle of anything. Everything today asks us to take a side, to have a definitive opinion. Yet it never made sense to me. I always loved the freedom of experimenting with the extremes but NEVER got tempted to stay by an end. My forever place was and will be" just right in the middle."

            Aristotle argued that the golden mean is what grants us Eudaimonia (Happiness). What is the golden mean? It is finding the middle spot of every extreme; it is the perfect Isorropia (Balance). let's have examples to understand the Aristotelian balance: Balance is courage, while the extremes are recklessness and cowardice. Balance is Kindness, while the extremes are selfishness and ultraism. Balance is Love, while the extremes are hatred and indifference. Balance is Generosity, while the extremes are miserliness and dissipation. 

Balance in our modern life goes beyond the characteristics necessary for personal virtue. Balance is an everyday choice relating to economy,  politics, environment, health …etc. Balance is to know not to take a side and be free to fly and explore, allowing yourself to learn without limitation. It is giving yourself permission to experience everything in life as it is without indulgence. While being aware of the long term cause and effect, which simply allow us to understand where we stand in the matrix of balance and adjust accordingly.

Mastering the golden mean allows us to experience situations even emotional ones  pragmatically, as explained by Aristotle with this example: “It is easy to get angry, but to know when to be angry, why you are angry,  whom you are angry at, and what amount of angry is the right amount for the situation is the brilliance.” Simply Aristotle tried to give us a recipe for wellbeing and happiness that is very easy to follow if we only understood the concept of balance. Another important concept presented by Aristotle was Eudaimonia, and he explained happiness as the way to live life not the mean of living life. The way to live a happy life is to lead a life of balance. To aspire to balance means to constantly trying to improve yourself, your life and the life of those around you. To embrace balance, however, is completely a different story; to embrace means to accept the existence of both extremes in life; good and bad and to know that one doesn’t exist without the other. Hold on with me a little bit more, we wouldn't be able to define courage if cowardice didn’t exist, nor we would be able to know what cowardice is if we didn’t know recklessness. The same applies to other concepts; we wouldn’t know happiness if we never experienced joy, and joy would be a meaningless concept if we never experienced sadness. The moment we recognize, practice and embrace balance, we have reached the golden mean.

            Let’s imagine something, you are going for a hike (or anything else you enjoy) with your partner or friends. You have two choices; one is to set a definitive time to reach the peak and that’s the ultimate goal of the whole hike. No longer stops around the way because the goal is to conquer the mountain. The second choice is to reach the peak while enjoying nature, having stops with your mate around the trail and explore what the surroundings have to offer. Hike, talk and enjoy everything around while being aware of the time and the duration needed to reach the peak reasonably. Which choice would you like to take? The first choice seems harder and competitive. The second choice seems more relaxed and fun. The truth is, the first choice is easier. You plan ahead and cut down the distractions but along the way you cut down the possibilities (that’s one extreme, success) or you end up by having some obstacles and never reach the peak nor enjoy the hike (that’s the other extreme, failure), but no matter the result is, the hike was a task. While the second choice is a bit harder to plan and requires a lot of awareness along the way it embraces the possibility of both success and failure because it understands the purpose of the hike is not only to reach the peak, rather enjoy the way to the peak with whoever is there with you, it is about the journey.

Glitch

          

                           The older we get, the wiser we become and the more mindful we should turn to be, supposedly that should make life easier. But the truth is, the more thoughtful we are the harder life gets. We are animals that were primitively designed for survival. The animal/us developed intellectual capabilities beyond survival which keeps fucking up our brain constantly. Because the human brain is a very complicated evolving mechanism with very simple programming and slow adaptation capabilities. The smarter we get the bigger chances our brain will glitch with the simplest of a concept. 

                     Happiness, for example, biologically very simple concept. The brain reward system is very primitive, it keeps us aware of good things and constantly searches for rewards to keep us motivated and learning but it forgets about their happening immediately. on the other hand, our defense mechanism keeps reminding us of the bad moment to avoid repeating them to help us survive. Which leads us to believe that bad moments are far more than good moments and we eagerly keep trying to experience the rewarding feeling. The issue with these two systems that they are very intuitive and basic. There is no deeper sense to their exact function except survival. BUT they have the ability to complicate our lives due to the lack of mindfulness in our modern life. 

                        If some functions of our brain are simple that doesn't mean life will be. Life has its own rhythm. There are good moments and bad moments, however, our brain seeks the good moments and wants more of them. In the same time, it usually keeps remembering the bad moments and tries to avoid them at all cost. What happens if we are not aware of ourselves and our lives, we keep chasing good moments in an attempt to reach happiness, because our brain translates happiness as a reward (brain chemistry) but in fact the more we chase good moments the less happy we become because we realize they do not last. To the contrary of that, our brain tries to skip bad moment and feel pressured by them which makes us remember more of them. The more we follow this pattern of thought the less happy we become and the darker we perceive life. Our brain glitch simply because it tries to keep its simple programming of reward and defense for survival purposes which not necessarily needed most of the times. Which we need to make a mindful effort to realize and stop.

                   Life is good and bad equally. What makes us happy is the inconstancy we have in life between good and bad. If life was all good we wouldn't be happy with it and we would've got bored and despaired from life. All we need to constantly remember (be mindful) is that not good nor bad can last forever. All comes to an end and it is part of the cycle of life. We need to train our modern brain to stop and think whenever a pattern persists and analyze pragmatically. Whenever you feel like life getting darker stop and think of all the good things that happened to you recently and compare them to bad things. Make a list, keep a journal .... It doesn't matter which way you will try to keep a record; just train yourself to keep a record. Make a comparison and see yourself and you will realize that life has its own balance. Go back to good moments and be grateful that you experienced them. Go back to bad moments and let them be a lesson for you to be a better person and to remember that nothing lasts forever. That's why I believe, many ancient teachings connected happiness to gratitude. Gratitude helps us to keep grounded, it makes us able to fool our brain thirsty reward system and make us feel genuinely happy as we should be for experiencing raw life even if we think we shouldn't be. Life is a continuous cycle and whether you see it dark or bright that will not change the outcome in any way. The better you feel, the more mindful you are, it helps you to keep a clear perspective and a peaceful outlook on almost everything. 

Although I almost worship the human brain and fascinated by it. But we should remember, The brain is a wonderful servant but a terrible master. We better keep it on a short leash whenever is needed to keep the balance in our lives.